Monthly Archives: October 2012

me

growing up lin my family was not easy as dad was attached to diffrent regiments all the time in the army. And moving dad going oof to gulf war was hardest part. As a 7 year child i suddenly became aware that my dad could die. And that plaged me for a good year and a half.And hospitnd of course going from hospital to having tests done having less and less movement in my lower legs and more and more pain made things confussing for a child. Also when trying to fit in to new places find where you belong as well and havingg something attacking your body not knowing what it is is hard to understand. And i rember the day so well when the doctors said if my legs kept going way it was by my 21st i would no longer be able to walk with cruches. and as it turned out i lasted longer, but recal day i shared this with so class mates and how much it hurt when they didnt understand. they saying what at midnight on your birthday are they going to sudenly stop working and giggleing. now looking back i know that this was just kids being kids and that there was nothing more to it then that. How could they understand there biggest worry was if they be  home for latest tv program. or if there mum had got them that new top they wanted. well for me none of that mattered as i grown up with never having a group of friends around for long. And being aware that there group of people who hated people that my dad worked for and that there people out there killing army men. so my life had never been like other children so when this medical problem become more of an issue it meant that i took better in some ways but in some ways being so grown up meant that i took this more serreously then child. it took over my life and meant that i was deppressed at 14 and felt like i was goin miss out on so much and let that rule me for so long which meant i missed out on loads while still could of had them. If i had been like other children i wonder if i would of lived for the day like other care free children. But then as long as i can recall i have been in loads of pain and had a range of other problems which restricted my life from young age. But having this happen has made me want to protect my kids more as i know how i found out even thou my parents tried to but let just say i was a very knowing and noise child. . which lead to me knowing more then i should have. I dont want that for my boys and knowing that my oldest is very much like me means i know how to stop him and my youngest dos not really care to find any thing out all he wants is to be huged and kissed and play and watch mickey mouse. strange blog tonight i know but wanted to clear my thoughts and this is best way.

 

ONE OF THOSE AWWWW DAYS

Don’t you just hate those days when everything you do is wrong well I had one of those days today. So start with life Has been turned upside down as had to get to my sisters early so my dad went there to go get dog so had chance to get kierren to school early. Then top it of ut got school to find harvest festivals was today and I not brought any thing in. So now had 6-year-old falling apart two-year old in bad mood as he wanted to stay in his pj but I got him dress and crowd of moms looking at me as if to say how dare you let your child down. Then try change an appointment So I would be able to fit in the assembly in but can’t luckily mate stepped in to save day take pics for me. So got appointment find that instead of paper work I had grabbed kierren home work . Number one loser right here people, but got sorted in end.
Then going tescos wait 20 mins for some bloke who had no child with him to move out of parent and child parking. Right five mins without children or adults moaning at me. Try find Moshi monsters to bribe and buy my way out of my wrong doing but tescos let me down not one blinking Moshi in whole store supper store my butt. Then this store helper I ask to get me sweet pastry gos gets me home pride I ask if they have own band. I get the killer shop assistant look the you dare to buy cheap brand do you have no standards. Yes I do dare as I am cheap and tight-fisted and any thing you want to call me as I would rather pay 79p then 2.pound 29p. Finely get all I need get to self serves and even the check out decided to have ago at
me. Please place teams in the bags please remove your items now can get a break today I ended up yelling at the thing asking it to wait five then I deal with its needs. Luckily I got to my friend’s home and yes i had to count to ten more than once because Kai still grumpy but I had my girl at hand to help make it bit better. I

My day

Don’t you just hate those days when everything you do is wrong well I had one of those days today. So start with life was turned upside down as had to get to my sisters early so my dad went there to go get dog so had chance to get kierren to school early. Then top it of ut got school to find harvest festivals was today and I not brought any thing in. So now had 6 year old falling apart two year old in bad mood as he wanted to stay in his pj but I got him dress and crowd of mums looking at me as if to say how dare you let your child down. Then try change an appointment to be able to fit in the assemberly in but can’t luckily mate stepped in to save day take pics for me. So got appointment find that instead of paper work I had grabbed kierren home work . Number one loser right here people, but got sorted in end.
Then going tescos wait 20 mins for some bloke who had no child with him to move out of parent and child parking. Right five mins without children or adults moaning at me. Try find moshi monsters to brib and buy my way out of my wrong doing but tescos let me down not one blinking moshi in whole store supper store my butt. Then this store helper I ask to get me sweet pastry gos gets me home pride I ask if they have own band. I get the killer shop assistant look the you dare to buy cheap brand do you have no standereds. Yes I do dare as I am cheap and tight fisted and any thing you want to call me as I would rather pay 79p then 2.pound 29p. Finely get all I need get to self serves and even the check out deciededs to have ago at
me. Please place iteams in the bags please remove your iteams now can get a break today I ended up yelling at the thing asking it to wait five then I deal with its needs. Luckily I got to my friends home and yes i had to count to ten more then once because Kai still grumpy but I had my girl at hand to help make it bit better. I th

Home baking

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This time of year me and my boys love we do all sorts of Halloween stuff. But my favourite thing to do with them is put on Halloween DVD snuggle under blankets get love hugs and watch it with them. My oldest loves all things sifi. So this time of year like his mummy he’s in his element with all new kids sifi films out. And things like my babysitter a vampire back which he loves. But time that we really bond as he’s older this year he’s easier to talk to and can watch more things that I like as well as him. But are fav thing to do with him and his brother is bake. Reason for this is because they both love the fact that they can see all the ingredients go in and see the out come (and eat it) and they love trying new things as well which is great as some kids don’t. Photo here is making winter spice cakes which where lovely.

My babysbond

My sons have four year age gapbetween then,I was always told it be hard to get them to bond. But life less sstressful thenhaving s,aller age gap. I often wonder where they get there info from. Since I fell pregnant with Kai kierren show intreast in him. When I went for scans he was amazed to see him grow move ect. The first time they meet kierren told midwife of for keeping his brother inas baby Kai should be home he told midwife. And from that day on wards Kai and kierren have had very close bond that is amazing to see. When Kai is sick even tho kierren-jack hates being around poorly people he be near Kai. And if kierren is crying upset for some unknow reason a hug from Kai makes it all better. But next second you hear mum Kai doing this, then mama err err which is way of saying kierren

Things my boys say and do.

As my sons get older they are getting more fun and more funny. Some things they say could get an adult in trouble. Like the other day when we where up at are local hospital we where in the car park and prescription flew out of the car, now I was in the car my mum was putting my wheelchair in the boot. So this woman was walking past she was a very well-built woman and this moment I wish I could shrink. As my oldest son sees the woman “run” after the script he says when she gives it back to me ” she needed some exercise didn’t she mummy. ‘ Luckily the woman saw the funny side of it. And today me and my mum where talking about how to make flat jacks my mum turns
Around say she like to make ones with raisins in. My six-year-old pipes up and says I know how to make them. Thinking maybe he done them in school I smiled and looked at him. Then asked ” how do you make them babe” he replies ” well mummy you buy a flat jack mummy put holes in it and put raisins in the holes” I was laughing at him so much it hurt. But he didn’t find it funny and told me of. Thing is he was totally straight-faced.As for my youngest one well he’s so cheeky the other day I was talking to him. I was about to go out with his brother to have bit of bonding. Well as sat down with him to explain what was going to happen how I was going to take kj out but next time was his turn. Well got to last bit on saying bye and said to him are you going Be good boy for nanny. He looked me straight in eyes and said “no good” then pointed at tin of sweets and said clearly ” kai good Kai tete” which is sweetie for him. Nothing like starting young and knowing how to set out to gain something for being good.

Poor missing girl

  Poor family of the little girl April who is five years old and disabled was out playing and seen getting into a van. This poor little girl Is missing now for four-days, seeing this just made me feel sick to my stomach what if that was one of my two she was out riding her bike just outside her home with her friends. Even thou we are on a quite estate I would not let my oldest out with his little friends unless I was out there or Grandparents ect. I would not leave him alone without some one responsible out there. It could well be that where she lives on one of thew places where you can as I know where some of my family are you can still do this. Or as she has siblings maybe mum turned her back for matter of seconds like we all have at some point. But iva way what must the parents and siblings be feeling? And knowing this poor little will be in pain as she has not had medication she needs regularly. I think its sick that people are blaming her parents for not watching her as i said some places are still nice safe normally areas. Or her mum may have been on door step watching but had to pop in to check tea or see to another child. I have many a time people should not judge people till they know all facts. As much as iv have read about the type of people who do this sort of thing still I can’t even try think of why they would do this.  I could never comprehend taking someone’s child away from them (unless child was in danger) . All can do for this poor little girl is hope and pray that she is found And returned home safely back to her loving parents. 

Life but not as we know it?

Having a six-year-old has made me realise how fast stuff is changing compared to when I was a child. We took him to museum and we got to place where they had an old living room set up a done of the first tv. It was about 17-inch at most. My son sat on sofa and we explained that would be only tv in-house with whole families of 12 watching it. He looks around says where’s the remote dos it get the free view. Which did give me a good giggle. And when he had an op last July we had play station by side if the bed to play game on and started to get bored he found a copy of a scobby film which he asked to watch. It was on video and at the end credits so I began rewinding it which point he started to cry. I asked him if he was in pain I got answer no mummy you broke the DVD now all kids that come in can’t watch it. I had to laugh as I was rewinding it with it turned on lines across tv was what he thought Is broken. And of course he had never seen a video as when he was 1 we got flooded and lost all ares and DVDs where cheap enough at that point. But it’s amazing how much technology wise has changed in 6 years like recording sky on sky box kj asked me to stop his program till he finished on loo. When he came back I tilde him how when I was small we could not do that. He looked at me like I was from another planet. So when did you go to loo mummy I told him if missed something that was tuff. Hands on his hips and a confused face I got told OH MY GOD mummy that’s like end of the world what would you talk about at school next day. What if things had changed like people thought it would be now what would he say then if cars where like planes and we had towns in space ect. He probably think that I came from stone age. Mind you he has asked me what Jesus was like when I went to school with him and was Einstein in my year. Let’s just face it my oldest son thinks I’m a dinosaur. I’m just waiting for my youngest to find out what things like when I was little compared to now.